II Corinthians 10:5 Casting down imaginations, and every high thing that exalteth itself against the knowledge of God, and bringing into captivity every thought to the obedience of Christ.
The faith teachers taught this as something tangible that I could DO to further my spiritual growth……..following their instructions, I thought I could actually implement the elusive command - take up your cross and follow me.
So I began my legalistic journey….. Daily, I IDENTIFIED what those IMAGINATIONS were. And of course cast them down…how did I do that? Well, if I had a thought that came against the written word or something that came into my mind that wouldn't be pleasing to my Father, I would speak out loud, stating like a lawyer would some particular part of the written word that refuted the thought..... faith talks, right? I told the thoughts they had no place in me or power to be fulfilled in my life and that I would not be moved, AND ADDED a lot of get thee behind me satan, commands........lol If in the presence of unsuspecting family and friends I would whisper a command that I thought was according to obedience.
Sometimes I used the written word and whipped or chided myself with it, thinking I was bringing my flesh under. If I feared something then that was the direction I was to take…..for he had not given me a spirit of fear…gritting my teeth, I trudged right in….was it a mountain? A wall? Then I could tell it to move, or jump over it……..always moving, speaking, doing…………I hope you don't think I am kidding because I am not.....Oh yes, I was zealous...lol
It’s taken the Lord lots of years to bring me back to himself and a true understanding of what – "take up your cross and follow", means. To understand how absolutely helpless I am to initiate or even cooperate with fulfilling it in my life……
Finally he is bringing me to the place of my own futility…….painfully my flesh has been exposed and the work of the cross is becoming real to me.
This week I found myself in a depressing battle……not even sure how I got there…….my soul would not leave me alone….I lost my peace in a much to do about nothing time. When I talked to the Lord, I was aware of his presence but he didn’t seem to have any input……lol…... when I slept I had fitful nightmares…… In this frame of mind I read an excerpt by Preston Eby and I got a little more than my peace back……..I found myself in need of repentance….with some thoughts I never THUNK before!
Joian
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It is not enough to make an occasional trip up to the cross, for death must become a mountain to us, we must go there and stay until the day breaks and the shadows all flee away! It bespeaks of a STATE OF BEING. To be dead is a state of being! We must abide in the condition of the Lord’s death. Today, many zealous Christians have the wrong concept. They believe they must fast, weep, pray, wait on the Lord, confess, and struggle in order to die. That is all good, but it is not death! To tarry at an altar is easy; to pray all night is easy; even to fast for a week or a month is easy; to confess with our mouth is easy; but to stay at the mountain of myrrh for a lifetime is not easy. We could all fast and pray for a long time without any sleep, but to stay in the Lord’s death means to so identify with His death that we renounce all the works of the flesh, we repudiate all the emotions of the soul, we abandon all the imaginings, reasonings, and inventions of the carnal mind, we disclaim all the hopes, dreams and aspirations of our own will and way, and forsake all the traditions, forms, methods, and foolishness of religion, so that we simply are dead.
Sometimes I used the written word and whipped or chided myself with it, thinking I was bringing my flesh under. If I feared something then that was the direction I was to take…..for he had not given me a spirit of fear…gritting my teeth, I trudged right in….was it a mountain? A wall? Then I could tell it to move, or jump over it……..always moving, speaking, doing…………I hope you don't think I am kidding because I am not.....Oh yes, I was zealous...lol
It’s taken the Lord lots of years to bring me back to himself and a true understanding of what – "take up your cross and follow", means. To understand how absolutely helpless I am to initiate or even cooperate with fulfilling it in my life……
Finally he is bringing me to the place of my own futility…….painfully my flesh has been exposed and the work of the cross is becoming real to me.
This week I found myself in a depressing battle……not even sure how I got there…….my soul would not leave me alone….I lost my peace in a much to do about nothing time. When I talked to the Lord, I was aware of his presence but he didn’t seem to have any input……lol…... when I slept I had fitful nightmares…… In this frame of mind I read an excerpt by Preston Eby and I got a little more than my peace back……..I found myself in need of repentance….with some thoughts I never THUNK before!
Joian
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It is not enough to make an occasional trip up to the cross, for death must become a mountain to us, we must go there and stay until the day breaks and the shadows all flee away! It bespeaks of a STATE OF BEING. To be dead is a state of being! We must abide in the condition of the Lord’s death. Today, many zealous Christians have the wrong concept. They believe they must fast, weep, pray, wait on the Lord, confess, and struggle in order to die. That is all good, but it is not death! To tarry at an altar is easy; to pray all night is easy; even to fast for a week or a month is easy; to confess with our mouth is easy; but to stay at the mountain of myrrh for a lifetime is not easy. We could all fast and pray for a long time without any sleep, but to stay in the Lord’s death means to so identify with His death that we renounce all the works of the flesh, we repudiate all the emotions of the soul, we abandon all the imaginings, reasonings, and inventions of the carnal mind, we disclaim all the hopes, dreams and aspirations of our own will and way, and forsake all the traditions, forms, methods, and foolishness of religion, so that we simply are dead.
(Preston Eby)
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Ephesians 2: 8-10
For by grace are ye saved through faith; and that not of yourselves: it is the gift of God: Not of works, lest any man should boast. For we are his workmanship, created in Christ Jesus unto good works, which God hath before ordained that we should walk in them.
Ephesians 2: 8-10
For by grace are ye saved through faith; and that not of yourselves: it is the gift of God: Not of works, lest any man should boast. For we are his workmanship, created in Christ Jesus unto good works, which God hath before ordained that we should walk in them.